I have severe depression. I have not told anyone in my family about it. I am scared they will do nothing to help and that will damage and hurt me even more. I told my best friend about it but it makes her uncomfortable to talk about it, I think so I don’t bring it up often. I spend every night crying. I spend everyday daydreaming about my death. Unlike most days, I couldn’t hold back the urge to cry all day long. All day, I was on the verge of crying, so I did. Of course, I had to do it in secret because my family was here. I don’t know how long I can keep hiding. It feels like I am dying and cannot tell anyone. I have my suicide all planned out; it’s just a matter of time before I accidentally start balling in front of my family that will push me ver the edge to do it.